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April 03, 2008
I'm a Grammy! This is my first grandchild. I'm proud. I'm speechless. Love, Lorelei
posted by Chloe and lorelei 7:41 PM
March 18, 2008
Hello the Mermaids-- "The next thing you see is impossible...."
I say that to myself sometimes. I lost my home, my daughter's home. We live in a small apartment. I am scared out of mind about how I will take care of all my children. I can't hardly move sometimes because of the pain, and the fear. I have to take care of everything, and it scares me. I have to do all this and act like everything is copacetic all the time, when truly, inside, I'm frightened.
I do pray. If I didn't have God, this would be impossible. He's bigger than all these troubles, He's the reason I can smile, without Him, I would be lost. All would be lost. I wish someone would see the real me. When I was young, and being abused, I would see someone who I thought was a good person, and I would try to tell them that they could adopt me, and I would be theirs for a song. The only way I could do this was to look at them, and I would hope they could see in my eyes all my sadness, and take me away from those who were hurting me. It never happened. I do the same thing now, only now I know that God knows, and He is with me. He's always known the real me, He loves me. Fun post today, all apologies,
Love, Lorelei
posted by Chloe and lorelei 5:07 AM
March 11, 2008
Mermaids Love Sunflowers Too!
The name says it all. I took this picture at David's garden last year. I love sunflowers. They actually do follow the sun. They turn away from the shade and need the sun to grow. Even though, this picture is the silhouette, you get the idea. And, I got a blue ribbon at the fair with this picture.
That is the most excellent analogy to our life as I can ever think of. I have been in the shade, wallowing in sadness, struggling to overcome, by myself. I get it now. Just look to the Son. Keep your eyes on Jesus...it's more than a song, it should be the whole aim of life.
I'm working on it
Love,
Lorelei :)
posted by Chloe and lorelei 8:02 AM
March 08, 2008
I have decided to be honest. I need friends, real friends. I am struggling, and it is hard. The mermaid needs loving friends.
I have PTSD, and, this is hard; I am fat. I have tried exercise and diet for so long, but it's hard Any encouraging words and loving thoughts would be most appreciated.
Be kind,
Love, Lorelei
posted by Chloe and lorelei 5:47 PM
March 22, 2007
The Night Has A Thousand Eyes
by Francis William Bourdillon
The night has a thousand eyes,
And the day but one;
Yet the light of the bright world dies
With the dying of the sun.
The mind has a thousand eyes,
And the heart but one;
Yet the light of a whole life dies
When love is done.
Six years ago, I was married. We had this pretty ceremony, Chris was so smiling, he seemed to be the happiest I ever saw him. I thought it was last forever. There was an excitement and a happiness---his parents were so kind, his Dad said the kindest words, everyone was happy for us.
You Can tell a lot about a man by the way he ends things.
posted by Chloe and lorelei 10:56 PM
March 13, 2007
Hello you all,
see Chloe's blog: catslaughoutloud.blogspot.com
and me:
mermaidlorelei.blogspot.com
Love you all, Lorelei
posted by Chloe and lorelei 9:37 PM
March 12, 2007
Been a long time....
I thought everyone could use a break....yeah, that's it....
I've been working in Sunriver. It's a fun ride to work each day---sort of life threatening---people drive like crazed nuts, so fast, so furious.....it's like a movie.
Okay, enough silliness. Love you all,
Lorelei
check out Chloe's blog:
catslaughoutloud.blogspot.com
and the other mermaid page:
lovemermaid.com
posted by Chloe and lorelei 6:23 PM
December 10, 2006
This is the best time of the year, well, I think I say that at every time, I love the cold, the hot, the in-between.
I most love that Jesus is being celebrated in this huge way. Chloe and I saw the Nativity movie, it's beautiful, we went with friends to a church that made a tour of Bethlehem, that was incredible, I cried.
I love God, I love Him so much, and I love everyone for being kind. I'm still struggling though, send help, Dear God, Love to you all, Lorelei
posted by Chloe and lorelei 10:18 AM
November 21, 2006
Hello the Mermaids,
Just a special verse that means so much:
"He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. . . . Great is our Lord and mighty in power; his understanding has no limit" (Psalm 147:3, 5).
God knows everything, but He still wants us to talk to Him. He does understand, He does care, and that is what I am most thankful for.
Have a Great Thanksgiving, and remember to Give Thanks, even in sadness, because God cares, He loves, what else comes close to His Love?
Love to you all,
Lorelei
posted by Chloe and lorelei 7:18 AM
October 27, 2006
Hello the mermaids,
I haven't had any new lovenotes postings in a long time, and now there they are! Thank you all, and thank you Phoenix, I love your name and address!
I am humbled by anybody being nice to me. I feel so lost and afraid and alone. I know that God loves me, but I feel alone. At my job, I read all the verses and quotes I can, but I still don't feel it in my heart. My heart is so wounded, it's on life support--is that possible? I feel like it's unable to do anything, I don't know why it's still beating. Why is it still beating??
If you want to post anything kind and helpful, or any questions or comments, please do. You can also read more at mermaidlorelei.blogspot.com --I started that blog in the summer just for fun, but there is no more fun, not now.
Love to you all,
Lorelei
posted by Chloe and lorelei 1:48 PM
October 23, 2006
I should change the name from daily mermaid to rare mermaid. I just have nothing to share. It's been over a month, and the pain is the same, maybe even stronger. You just don't do this, you don't abandon your family, you don't take a spouse away from their family, but they have, and we're paying the price, and it's too high. Counseling, it helps, but the feeling of being abandoned because of selfishness, it is just too much. Anyone I haven't begged prayer from, please pray for us.
posted by Chloe and lorelei 5:55 AM
October 07, 2006
Divorce is not funny, it isn't anything to be glib about. It's painful, it's a walking death. It's hurting my daughter, and that makes me mad. It's hurting me beyond any pain I've ever felt, and yet, he's laughing about it, and his girlfriend and her friends are laughing about it. It isn't funny, it's serious damage. If the whole world says "we weren't growing, so let's get divorced and start a new family", you can choose to be a man and make it work. The only reason for divorce is selfishness, love gives, it doesn't take away, and it forgives and keeps going, or it was never love, because that's what love is, and I know what love is, and right now it feels like some very selfish cruel people are laughing at my daughters and my pain, and it isn't funny. I am not old shoes, I am a beautiful bright woman who never deserved to be treated like this, and then have it be mocked. My daughter will not ever totally recover, her trust and faith in her Daddy are gone, gone forever. Sure, she will live, but this has left a forever hurt in her heart and life, all because Daddy wanted something else and couldn't be a man and make his family work and be happy. There's a saying that's true: "Do the right thing"....not do the feel-good thing, do the right thing, stay with the family that you started and make it loving and happy, don't abandon the wife of your youth, love stays forever, it doesn't run off with weak excuses, it's love, it stays. It never laughs about the pain, because that isn't funny, divorce is a hurt that never heals, you just live with it, but it never heals. Love stays forever, or it was never love.
posted by Chloe and lorelei 11:45 AM
September 17, 2006
Hello The Mermaids,
My man is leaving me for someone else. I am beyond sad, I watched a movie where a lady says "why can't divorce kill you? When someone you promised to love forever says 'it's over', it's worse than a bullet in the heart, but you keep living, you wake up each morning, you don't know how to live, but you wake up morning after morning".
That's how I feel right now.
I promised forever, and I love forever, and I know, if it doesn't last forever, it was never love.
Love to you all, Lorelei
It is easy to love the people far away. It is not always easy to love those close to us...Bring love into your home for this is where our love for each other must start.
-Mother Teresa
posted by Chloe and lorelei 2:00 PM
September 06, 2006
Hello the beautiful Mermaids!
There is a wonderful quote from Marianne Williamson that I wanted to share. It's from the movie "Akeelah and the Bee". Everyone should watch it, it's a great movie!
'Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.' We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we're liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
So Mermaids....let's not forget to be fabulous! Love to you all, Lorelei
posted by Chloe and lorelei 1:40 PM
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